After
that second competition nothing really happened till first term exams...
I was at
a private school, "Mosab Ibn Omair". Since 9th grade is the end of
our elementary education, it was an important degree. The exams had to be held
in a local school, i.e. a school built by the government. Our school was
assigned to take exams with "Al-Salam" mid school for girls, the same
school that Alyaa attends.
At the
school, Mo'men was with me at the same school. Every 5 minutes he'd pop up to
me and tell me where Alyaa was, what she was doing and with whom she was
talking. Every day I see her before me, everyday Mo'men keeps telling me how
beautiful she was and every day I like her more than I used to the day before
until I finally discovered that I'm in love with her, all because of Mo'men.
The
exams finished and we started the second term with me knowing that I love her
so I tried to stay close and talk to her but still, nothing! The term finished
and the exams came. In the first day we had Arabic exams… I did well in the
exam, great tbh, and revised with my friends after the test. When I got out of
the class something strange happened. Something I couldn't believe at that
instant.
“Are
you Ahmad Mamdouh?” A girl showed up out of nowhere asking… That felt
strange and extremely odd to me. I don’t know her, doesn't ring a single bell
and she knows my name! That feeling was immediately crushed and replaced by
surprise when I saw Alyaa behind her. Most likely she didn't want her friend to
ask me but her friend, apparently, wanted face her with reality. I still don’t
know why that happened. I don’t even know how it happened and how her friend
knew me in the first place.
Never
the less, “Yes” I replied looking at Alyaa and still confused but Alyaa
stepped forward, which made me very nervous, and asked me in several points in
the test. Some of them were true and some were wrong and it didn't matter
anyway. All I knew at that point is that I wanted the time to freeze because
there she was right in front of me, an angle talking to me and I don’t believe
it.
“Anything
else?” was my stupid, hideous response. I didn't even wait for an answer
and went away from them without looking back. Until this day I don’t know what
made me do that. I realized how stupid that was immediately afterwards. Should I
go back? – No. I told myself that I’d talk to her after the next exam but I never
got the nerve to do it. Until this day I blame myself for leaving her there. Until
this day I wished to go back in time and make it right… but things just don’t
work that way. And yes I’m stupid!
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